Have you ever stood quietly still and felt the energy around you? As I sat here thinking of the words to write down, a Lindsey Sterling song came on Pandora and it brought chills through my entire body. I used that moment to close my eyes and allow the energy to flow. I may not yet understand why the energy is here, but someday I hope to. I can still feel it after the song has changed. That is the energy I want to channel and follow. I want to go deep into to realm and walk around with the souls that live there.
An Irish song comes on and there are shadows in my vision. At first I see people digging. It’s like the scene of a movie, they have pickaxes breaking away the ground. They are chained up all in a line. It feels like a memory, but I have seen this before! Hidden deep in my mind or a scene from a movie? Then it changes to people dancing in a circle, stomping their feet with spears. An Indian pow wow? Its all shadows with gray light towards the top. It’s like I am looking up, am I a child or laying on my stomach from the tall grass? As I am writing this the chills are flowing deep through my body, its so hard to describe! It starts in my shoulders and goes up into my head and flows down through my body and ends in my toes. It feels cold and electric and almost takes away my breath. It feels like I have a super power but I don’t know how to use it.
My great grandmother was half Indian, at least that is what I recall. I wish I knew more about her and her parents! My grandmother is still here but I barely know her. I need to ask her about my great grandmother before it it too late. I still remember going to her house as a child. I have few memories of my entire life, but why do I have such strong memories of this all of a sudden? She lived in Saxons River Vermont in an old red house right off a dirt road. I remember a large rock in the yard so big that I could hide behind it. I was only 5, I bet it is not so big now. I see a covered porch with a large rock for the stair to go in, and inside the door the kitchen to the left. An old chair, a yellow chair really sticks out and I do not know why. The floors were large wood planks with large cracks. At the entrance, maybe the living room was there. I see a large room maybe with stairs at the far side but it feels so blank and vague. It seems like there was another room off to the right. That is the room I think I was in the day she gave me the quilt she sewed by hand. She made one for all of the family including me! I still have it to this day. I wonder if I can feel energy from that? That just gave me another burst of chilling energy. Does this all mean something or is it all in my head?
I see a bathroom towards the rear right of the house. The toilet was one that you had to hold the handle to flush and the sink with one hot knob and a cold knob, the ones like a snowflake that fit so perfectly in your hand when you turn it. You had to turn it and hold it to keep the water going. I honestly do not know if any of this is real or just made up in my head.
I remember a garden in the yard and I think a farm nearby. I wonder if I could find it if I take a ride out there? Our memories are never true to us, they are somehow distorted over time. I have not thought about any of that since I don’t know when. How could any of it be completely right. Again chills hitting me. Maybe she is here with me, maybe that is why I am seeing this and maybe the chills are her communication! She was in her 90’s 94 or 96 sounds about right and I was 8 or 9 when she passed. Now I want to cry because I feel like all of that is really the truth. The tears are in my eyes and the music is so beautiful now! It’s another Lindsey Sterling song, and it is called Ascendance! I think I am connected to something right now. I don’t want it to end, how do I keep it going?
I feel like I could do Reiki right now. It feels like the energy I get when I go to a Reiki master. I really want to go more and open things up. Maybe take the classes and become a Reiki Master. My first experience must have opened me up to start my journey to where I am now. Nine and a half years ago right after Cora was born was my first experience. She was my 3rd and final child so I decided I wanted to have an easier birth. I wish I knew then that all I had to do was change my diet to have an easy and painless birth. So without knowing any better I got my first epidural.
Ok, total distraction, Aspiration by Teminite is playing. I felt the need to close my eyes, the energy came and I felt the need to hold my hands facing up. I felt the energy in my hands (every time I write the word energy I feel a surge through my whole body). I could move it back and fourth. It was like I was holding it like I could touch and feel it. My palms of my hands started to itch and they are doing so now as I write it down. I wish I could understand this moment so I can have this experience again. My husband says I experienced Chi.
Back to how I found Reiki. When they did the epidural, my husband says they put the needle in twice. At that moment he knew they had messed up the first try. So fast forward to about 3 weeks later. Out of nowhere I couldn’t lay down without this immense pressure in my head. It was so bad that I screamed in pain for what felt like hours at a time. It was the worst pain I have ever experienced. Many moments I wanted it and my life to end.
I went to the hospital and Dr. a few times. I was on a small paper sack full of drugs! Each time I went I was put on more but was never told to stop taking any of the list that I gave them when I arrived. One day my right toe started to go numb and I felt it travel up my entire right side into my face. Went to the ER in the town I am currently staying in. They said it was nothing, at least they didn’t find anything by the time I got there and they got me in. After that I saw my regular Dr. and I was having a bad episode when I arrived. She attempted to do Reiki on me without explaining what she was doing. It didn’t work because the pain was so intense and I was unaware and resisting it.
I suffered a total of around 2 months at least that is how I remember it. Thinking back that doesn’t make sense because by the time I went back for my check up at my OB-GYN, it had been cured. I feel so confused on the time line, but they had pushed back that app at least once but twice rings a bell. Funny how time gets distorted even in the most recent of events in our lives.
My regular Dr. out of Whitehall NY had ended up setting an appointment with me to try the Reiki again. This time she explained it enough for me to allow her to do her thing. I think if she had completely explained it to me at that time I’d of thought her crazy. So here I am in a Dr. office sitting up and all she did was place her hands just above me in different positions of my body. I could feel the heat from her hands going into my body.She placed her hands on both sides of my head and other places around my forehead and neck area as well as other places around the body. Before I left the pressure was releasing. It madethis clicking noise that cames from the sinus area. I still have it to this day. My head gets pressurized and I’ll press in at the sinuses and that noise drives my family nuts but the relief is so satisfying!She did three sessions a few days apart and it was gone. All those pills couldn’t fix the worst pain I had ever felt including the pain of child birth. Something so simple as energy healed a spinal headache without having to patch it! Pretty amazing what we are capable of if we can wake up enough to experience it.
That was likely my moment of experience that started the curiosity of a better life. After being distracted now, my energy is gone. I hope to find it again. Ok it is still there, just have to close my eyes. An Irish tune is playing and I am letting it in. Need to keep my diet going and maybe this will be here for me when I want to feel it!
Let me know if you want to hear more! My husband has a scary ability that he is afraid to unlock. If I get enough interest, I will publish his story. It has to do with the dead! Sending Love to your all!






